Let’s begin…

I don’t even know where to begin…

I could start with how I’m trying to become a better Christian but can’t really overcome the dislike I have for my appearance or my temper or my habit of cursing…

I could start with my past that no longer haunts me even though it’s filled with so much abuse of every form from junior high till 3 1/2 years ago…

I could start with my past drug use and alcoholism…

I could start with the countless boys that have taken advantage of everything I had because they knew I was just looking for a father figure to replace my insecure relationship with my dad…

I could start with my past of suicide attempts and self-mutilation…

I could start with the loss of a tiny baby that only had a month to develop before he/she went to be with God…

But I choose to start with the gaining of a man who took care of me and changed my life for the better. The man who shares in the blessing of creating 2 beautiful gifts! The man who would give me everything he had and even everything he didn’t have. Even through our ups and downs he can still make me smile. He’ll be with me forever. I’ll be with him forever. No doubts. No regrets. Just love.

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